Killing the Inner B@tch

This is a continuation of a previous post…
Something that Sucks.

After implementing a daily running habit I realized that until I have warmed up I have no say on if I can or can’t exercise. 

I have to kill my inner b@tch each morning before I start the day. The best way to accomplish that is doing something that sucks. The trick is treating that something that sucks like it is doing damage to your inner b@tch.

But, what is an inner bitch?
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It’s the voice that says, “You can do that later.”
This b@tch voice is deceptive and crafty.

“Thats how your governor works…. it massages your ego even as it stops you short of your goals.” – David Goggins

The governor is the system within you that is responsible for your well being through the means of slowing you down for safety.
Don’t swim too far because we may get too tired to swim back and live another day.

The issue is that this system that keeps us alive starts to become a problem when life is no longer a dangerous as it was with dinosaurs.
I struggle with this chirping doubt that is controlled by ego and influenced by self preservation. My solution for years was negative self talk and force.
I thought that if I treat it like a rival fighter that it will be scared and run off. Issue is that the inner b@tch’s buddy ego knows everything about you and can mask itself as your own voice telling you its ok to stop short.
With this running habit I have learned I can run every single day if I want to; that all I have to do is get my body warmed up and then we are good to go in nearly any condition.
The ability to push yourself when it is most difficult is highlighted in David Goggins’s story.

Negative self talk only leaves you with more debt down the road mentally. It is as similar to any amphetamine; when you take it you can get so much done, but drained twice as much as you would have been prior. 
Negative self talk corrupts you like a 90s computer virus, slowly mocking you along the way. Once it has taken you it is very difficult to get clean once more.

My solution to this is to have myself a tight morning routine. This routine leaves no room for anything but action. The more I can get into doing and less idling the less room there will be for the negative self talk.
Killing your inner b@tch takes time. It takes as long as cycles and cycles of antibiotics to get rid of an infection.

“Kill them with kindness.” – Steven Soderquist 

Killing with kindness and possibility is the key. Keeping your head up and held high even if the tide is washing over your face. It’s important that in the times that are toughest you push on. 
Sometimes pushing on is as simple as finishing your homework early instead of before the class next day. 

If it feels like homework do it now. In no way will waiting get it done.