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Privilege

I am too good for that. I’m better than that.You can’t make me do it.You live like this! Gross.I’m better than you.I can’t even imagine living like that.Poor you. Being born in a specific region, time or place that seems better than others doesn’t mean you are better, it means only that you are different. “I’mContinue reading “Privilege”

Moment of F@ck: Effectively Panicked Part 2

In my last post my partner and I received the news that she and her whole team had been let go due to the coronavirus craziness. This relationship with my partner has a theme. That theme is extreme. Seems like we are getting our personal trials out of the way early. So much has happened backContinue reading “Moment of F@ck: Effectively Panicked Part 2”

MASKED

Aside from the lack of a strong drag of the open air these masks are something I enjoy.I am a true introvert. As for me the mask allows a barrier to the world. A support blanket that hides me from others. There is some definite work to be done in this region of my mind,Continue reading “MASKED”

Personal Sparring

Beating yourself up.Over-criticizing yourself. Being too hard on yourself.Give yourself a break.Being mean to yourself.Being your own drill sergeant. I heard all of this growing up. Once something happened that I felt I caused, I would place myself in mental court. This court is more like a dojo with Master Me beating the living shit outContinue reading “Personal Sparring”

Motivation

The swanky detective limbos the caution tape, whips off his shades and kneels beside the dead body. As he scans the body the wounds highlight like your favorite quote in a book. The detective stands, turns to his partner, and says, “I know the motive!” Motives are what drive us to do what we do. Continue reading “Motivation”

CHARLIE the Maintenance Guy

Charlie wakes up to a blaring alarm….He gets up right away with no fatigue and a zesty aggression to his step. *BOOP* He is teleported to his work as if all the getting ready seemingly just happens each day with no recollection of it actually transpiring.A message for Charles (as his mom would professionally referContinue reading “CHARLIE the Maintenance Guy”

WHO ARE YOU?

I recently helped spark the fire of clarity in my partner with the line of questioning behind who she aspires to be. Not the career or status but the content of the character who has assumed all they wish for. Most of us have some kind of idea yet we don’t work at them because excusesContinue reading “WHO ARE YOU?”

Genetic Rage

F@CK! Throwing the nearest object across the room to disturb the flow of heat and aggression bubbling from within like the streams of lava oozing from the island of Hawaii. I was born this way…A bustling team of aggressive bees all in a “tissy” as my mother would refer.She always had a different way toContinue reading “Genetic Rage”

Something that Sucks

David Goggins has become well known for his concept of doing something that sucks daily. This man has perpetuated an identity around the fact that no challenge can beat him. Going full clip at everything done. And always knowing he will do it again. This isn’t a fun concept to perform right away or evenContinue reading “Something that Sucks”

Sh@t Eaters

In every group there is an individual of great fortitude. They are the epitome of what it means to be resilient. If you are lucky in your groups, either with family, work, school, or your local hangout, you can have multiple of these resilient people. Most of the time these persistent people often have thatContinue reading “Sh@t Eaters”